Who are you?

Through the process of self-discovery I realized that I had spent so much time living the way I wanted others to see me that I wasn’t being my true and authentic self. After much time alone in self-discovery mode I have truly found my path on this Journey and it is incredible.

One of the best things that I did was removing myself from all social media (i.e. Facebook, Instagram). In fact this is first thing I require my coaching clients to do. This helps them regain their sense of worth, empowers them to validate themselves and frees up a lot of time that they were spending looking at other people’s lives and comparing their own lives to another’s. This is not healthy.

My advice to everyone who is on a Journey of healing is — GET OFF SOCIAL MEDIA! Yes, I am yelling 🙂

Once you remove yourself from social media or at least Facebook, you can start to learn who you are and get to know yourself without all of the noise and the constant chaos of social media. You won’t be posting something in hopes of validation that someone “liked” it and disappointment when they don’t. Instead, that validation will come from within. It is critical that you learn to validate yourself and not seek your self worth from others.

It took me a good solid and downright painful year of solitude to figure out who I was, the good and the not so good. I found it to be easier to start with the broken side of me, because that is usually the most obvious and well its the hardest to face and conquer.

I learned very quickly that I was a complete control freak which derived from a severe fear of abandonment. I literally tried to control every single aspect of my life. I knew this needed to change. So I dug deep with a therapist and we started working to heal those childhood wounds. I learned that because of my need for control, I wasn’t even remotely enjoying life I was steering and driving it to go the way I thought it needed to go and missing the beauty of surprise which can be so magical. I was missing all of the magic.

The reality is, it is impossible to control every aspect of our lives, but this is a hard lesson to learn for sure.

I learned many other things about myself which were depressing, interesting, eye opening and confusing all at the same time but I have to say, this Journey of self discovery has been truly amazing. Learning about yourself is cathartic on so many levels and really opens up the doors to healing.

So, after I started working through the “bad” stuff, the positive parts of me surfaced and I have discovered some really neat things about me.

Like….I am more of an introvert than an extrovert, which was highly surprising to me. In the past I always centered myself around people and truly felt I needed people to survive. This is no longer the case. I understand now that it was my intense fear of being alone that drove a more extroverted behavior and not that I was an actual extrovert.

I also learned that I am very creative, intuitive and philosophical a true to form Sagittarius.

As a result of all this work, I really appreciate and even crave my alone/down time so much, I process information differently, I look forward to every moment I spend on my yoga mat and I am actually able to meditate on my own now. I used to think with meditation you had to shut down your brain to the point that no thoughts entered which is impossible and not what is required. Once I got the concept of simply “resting your body and mind” even for 5 minutes, I saw the benefits immediately.

Because of this transition I am a better person. My relationships are stronger and deeper. I have zero tolerance for toxic people and because of this I made a conscious choice to only surround myself with people who I feel good around. Sounds a little selfish, but it isn’t. Life is short and spending it with people who emotionally drain you or continuously take from you is not healthy, for either person. 

Always choose yourself.

The old me used to be busy constantly, planning my weekends in advance and making sure I always had a social function to attend or in the very least, people to spend time with. Now, I value my time so much, that I refuse to plan my life away. Some things are avoidable and there are times you need to plan things in advance. But my weekends are my time and most of the time I don’t know what I want to do until I tackle the day and sometimes I just want to do my own thing with no responsibilities or commitments and I want that flexibility to decide. This is OK!

Through this amazing transformation I have learned who I am as a person, a mother, friend, co-worker, employee and person of society and I truly like who I am. There are things I am working on and things that will not change that I have to accept about myself, but overall I am the healthiest I have ever been. I am grateful to have had this time to find me.

So, I encourage you to ask yourself…who are you? do you like you? and what would you change if you could?

Namaste’

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Emotional pain and how it affects us..

I haven’t written in a few days mainly because I have been dealing with intense muscle knots that have turned into a perceived pinched nerve.  Let’s just say I have gone a little koo koo trying to figure out how to “fix” me and feel better.

During my meditation yesterday I started sobbing…you know that uncontrollable sobbing that cleanses your soul?  I realized at that moment what the knots are.

Deep emotional pain.

Once the sobbing subsided, I created my intention for my yoga practice.  It was to let go of my past and to forgive myself for bad decisions as well as forgive those who have hurt me, even intentionally.

After my meditation and yoga practice I took a hot bath with lavender, frankincense and Epsom salt.   Afterwards, I felt so free…cleansed…and much lighter.  However by the time I settled down for the evening,  my knots had returned and I experienced another sleepless night.

The next day, by late morning I made space for some meditation and a bit of yoga.  Once I hit the mat, got into position and lit the sage…tears started pouring down my face again.  Ahhh, more emotional pain.  So I let it all out and allowed myself to feel and process whatever I needed to and then I resumed the meditation.

My lesson….healing just like grief is not linear, it is a roller coaster of emotions and feelings.

Trauma doesn’t disappear, it only fades, and I am also learning that I must manage it closely forever.  Time alone does nothing, what I do with that time is everything!

Healing takes patience, persistence, commitment and courage.

Meditation, therapy, energy work, writing, creativity, feeling your feelings are all modalities to healing properly and regaining all that you lost and finding what you never had.

Although this is truly so much work, the benefits are worth the struggle.

They say you are your thoughts and that is 100% the truth.  What you do think about, you bring about.  So even when you are blue, I encourage you to focus on what you do have, I empower you to be your best self and to allow yourself to feel what you are meant to feel so you can move forward.

I am doing it right along with you.

Love, light and empowerment

-A

 

 

What I wish I always knew

When you are broken, let it motivate you to become who you really are meant to be.

Whatever that is.  Whoever that is.

Don’t let that experience go to waste.  Embrace it.  Feel it.  Own it.  Despise it.  Then love it.  Respect it.

It teaches you something.

Be YOU!

Whatever that is.  Whoever that is.

It is important that you learn the lesson or it will repeat and beat you up ten fold next time.

Look at yourself in the mirror, write yourself a love note, meditate and thank God for creating you.

Because there is only one you and you are AMAZING!
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